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HOLD ON

“Until the day is over, there’s a chance you’re going to remember it for something else” - This is us 🥺


One of my favorite songs from Adele's 30 is "Hold On". Some lines that really stand out to me in the song are: "Right now I truly hate being me" and "Let time be patient".


Right now, I truly hate being me


We've all had moments where we HATED our lives. Where we would have happily jumped at the chance to live another person's life, even just for a day. In fact, sometimes I genuinely ask myself, how am I sure than I am me? 


Like how do I tell my essence apart from someone else's? Like I came to the consciousness that I am who I am at like, age 5, but how do I know I'm myself and not someone else. It's a complex question to ask and even explain, so I try not to think about it for too long.




The point is, at many times in our lives and maybe even right now, we have hated being ourselves. The song offers encouragement in the next line.


Let time be patient


I read that line 2 ways. As 1 sentence, let time be patient; let time take its time. And as 2 sentences; Let time. Be patient. Allow time have its way with you; let time do its thing. Be patient with it. In time, things tend to work themselves out or at least become clearer.


One interesting quote I heard from one of my favorite shows, This is us, puts it like this: "Until the day is over, there's a chance you're going to remember it for something else"


The day in that sentence can be the literal 24 hours or just be the entirety of our lives.


A bad day could wrap up with marvelous news. A good day could get even better with even better news. Hold on.


Without sounding too motivational (idealistic), A bad day could get even worse with even worse things happening. A good day could go to shit with terrible news. Hold on regardless. No lose concentration 😏




I remember posting on my status one day that "today was a fairytale". That day indeed was a fairytale. I went to this very fancy part of town, went to this fancy exclusive place that costs a FORTUNE to get in at no cost to me. I even got paid to be there 🤯 Did this beautiful work for this hooge company (details later). It was a perfect start.


Then the day went to shit. 


I wanted to go buy some supplies. The place I was going to was 2 buses from my house and 2 buses back. On the 1st bus, between the point where I swiped my card in front of the bus to my seat, I held on too tightly to a pole to prevent myself from falling cos London buses (or the drivers) tend to move mad. My card was in the hand that I used to hold on to the pole, so the pressure from my hand plus the fixed form of the pole ended in tears with my card broken 😓


Which is not too much of a problem. But considering that London buses do not take cash; all payments are contactless (i.e., you tap your card on the machine to pay for the bus); this was a problem because contactless payments don't work if there's any damage to the card. I didn't know this for sure, but I was quickly going to realize this when I tried to take the next bus to get to my destination. 




Remember, in total, I had to take 4 buses, and my card broke on the 1st one.


So now I had to figure out what to do after I stopped at the place to pick up the 2nd bus. On entering the bus, I tried tapping my card on the machine to see if it would work. Of course, it didn't! I tapped it like 5 times. The driver was getting impatient, and after everything, thankfully, he just let me in. So 1 bus down, 2 more to go. My new strategy was to try tapping the card that I knew would not work on the card reader and HOPE that the other 2 bus drivers I meet would be as kind as the other drivers. Thankfully they were.


But then another problem arose. 



I still needed the card to ride the train, and unlike the buses, there isn't any human interaction at the train station. But that was a future problem. A more imminent problem was that the next day, I had an appointment on the other side of town that was 2 buses away too, and I had to be there during the day. I didn't imagine that the 4 bus drivers I encountered would be as accommodating, so I had to solve my card problem quickly. 


I couldn't set up Apple pay cos my iTunes store was registered in Nigeria, and Apple pay doesn't work in Nigeria 😒and changing that setting was going to take 48 hours at the least! So that solution wasn't going to cut it. I eventually found a way around it but the 2nd half of that day was spent fixating on solving the broken card issue that I couldn't fully enjoy and bask in the fairytale that was the 1st half of my day.


"Until the day is over, there's a chance you're going to remember it for something else"


I've had many days that started off on the wrong note end on the best one too. So keep hope alive.


HOLD ON



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