Edna speaks

This week I was involved in a couple of negotiations. I had to find a middle ground, somewhere that made sure everyone was happy. I was so emotionally invested on finding that place so I put a lot of thought and work into it. After thinking and negotiating for a while, I had to settle that there was no middle ground. It was heart breaking. All my work, sweat and time was wasted. I was sad, but I wasn't the only one that felt bad with the outcome. The party I was bargaining for wasn't particularly happy as well. It hurt to see that I couldn't help. Like most humans that turn into philosophers on social media, this situation led me to think 'why can't we all be happy...?', 'why can't we all be happy at the same time?' After much soul searching I came to accept what I've always known but never wanted to admit. We can't all be happy, at least not all at once. For some people, their happiness lie at the beginning of someone else's sa...

Sometime in February, I was at the cinema. The day I went, they had Black Panther, 50 shades freed and Maze runner: Death cure all lined up and running at about the same time. I was very ecstatic about watching Black Panther due to the hype, I wanted to see what was making people go crazy 😁. However, I was also intrigued by the 50 shades series so I wanted to see how it would all come to an end, plus I had seen a couple of trailers before. I also wanted to watch Maze runner, although not as much as I wanted to see the other 2 but I've also followed the series so I wanted to see the end of it all. Plus Dylan O'Brien 😍 who played the role of Thomas was there so I had to see one of my favourite actors take on 'Wckd' for the last time on screens. After weighing all my options, I decided to watch Black Panther with hopes that I would be able to get the rest at school from fellow movie fanatics 😊. Thank God I did. Now here I am, 2 months later, I have both Maze r...

I'm easily irritated. For example, I can't stand people posting pictures that have already been posted before on a group chat. Anytime I see that, I just feel like calling the person out for it. I also really dislike broadcast messages that threaten you to send with statements like "if you don't send to xx number of people, you'll die or not get admission into university; it happened to Jane and Paul" or the ones that try to test your faith "if you love Jesus, you'll send or a conversation between God and satan 😑". I really hate those kind of broadcasts so when people send them to me, I almost go ballistic. I also really don't like small talk. You know, all those conversations that are just 'hey, how are you, how was your night/day, have you eaten.... ok', the end. I feel those conversations are largely useless. I feel like if you have something to say to me, just come straight up and tell me, don't rigmarole, I get th...

A couple weeks back, while reading a post on my friend's blog about the importance of drinking water, I decided to change my consumption habits from carbonated drinks to water. At that time, I was so convinced that I couldn't do it, I said to myself 'water is so bitter' 😣, I'd probably puke if I take too much of it 😣. I know you're probably thinking 'is it not the same water that we were taught in high school to be colorless, odorless and tasteless?' Well, to me, at that time, water was bitter and I couldn't imagine myself going everyday with that 'bitter taste' in my mouth. Day 1 went by and I was able to live with the 'bitter taste' in my mouth. Day 2 up to day 6 felt the same way. On day 7, a friend gave me a bottle of carbonated drink along with a slice of cake from her birthday goodies. There it was, my first temptation. Since I couldn't bring myself to buy carbonated drinks, temptation decided to show up with a ...

I've always been the overly ambitious yet carefree and nonchalant type. I want to have a very active social life yet I want to work a very busy important job that keeps me away from that social life. I want to share every single thought that crosses my mind with the world on every single talk show there is (maybe that's why I started this blog) but I'd rather not talk unless I'm spoken to and even if I am, I'll fight tirelessly to end the conversation. Put simply, I want to roll my dice and have every single possible outcome all at the same time. I want to sleep all day, wake up and walk into any store and buy everything available without checking the price tag. I want to be president... ok slow down, let's not get ahead of ourselves 😅, I'm still lazy remember. The truth is, I want alot of things. So many things that I don't think I can have them all in a life time 😩. However, since technology has been unable to find a way for me to eat m...

Exactly 2 months and 10 days ago, I sat in front of my laptop in a classroom, ready to act on the promise I made 4 days before, that I would start a blog. After a couple of minutes, I was done setting up my first blog "well that was easier than expected" I thought to myself. It was then time to write my first post. I decided to call it what most series call their premier episode --- 'pilot'. Finding the title was easy, it was then to filling in the content. I'm sure I cleared everything I wrote at least 5 times because I wanted it to be perfect 😅. After about an hour or two, I was done writing, I couldn't read through everything I wrote because I was very sure it was rubbish 😂. Before I could let myself second guess, I quickly clicked on the publish icon and shut down my laptop. After making that post, I still wasn't confident enough to tell people about the blog because quite frankly, I thought my first post was rubbish 😁. So I held off ...

This month, I decided to share my thoughts in a way that's vastly different from what most dedicated readers are used to. I decided to share my thoughts on the million dreams that keep me awake, I decided to share my thoughts on the future, my future. I started with the thing that those who have gone ahead of me have said is most important. I talked about grades. I needed to question the validity of grades. Would all the grades I've amassed over the years be important when I actually need them to be? I asked myself. Would good grades be just enough to achieve all my goals? Are my grades really important? Since my grades may not get me where I want to go, when I want to get there; I needed to ask myself what would and how long would it take me to. At that point, I realised there was even more uncertainty. Nonetheless I decided to embrace the uncertainty and trust the process . I decided to leverage my grades when necessary and pack them up when they're not bec...